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<h3>Why Me, Lord?</h3>A True Story of Faith, Obedience, and Grace in the Darkest Hours&nbsp; Part One - THE CALLThe phone rang at 1:30 a.m.—a call from Herrin ICU. A man wasn’t expected to live through the night, and his family was asking for “the guy in the cowboy hat” to come and pray.I got dressed quickly. Looking over at my wife, Anne, I said, “Why would they call me? With all the real preachers in Williamson County, why me? I’m just a country boy—not that bright, no major degrees, not that polish in my prayers and speech. There are plenty more qualified to pray than I am.”Still, I went. Driving to the hospital in the dark, I kept whispering under my breath, “Why me, Lord?”When I arrived, a man about my age lay on his deathbed, his wife standing beside him, weary and afraid. I prayed with her, prayed over him, and as the sun began to rise, I headed home—another long night as a first responder chaplain.I never saw them again after that morning. I had done what I was called to do—go, comfort, pray, and leave the rest in God’s hands. Looking back, I realize I didn’t need to follow up. It wasn’t my job to make God’s work succeed. My calling was simply to show up. Part Two — The Call BackThree months later, the phone rang again. “Are you the man in the cowboy hat who came to Herrin ICU that night?” the voice asked. I said I was.The caller paused, then said, “That was my dad. The doctors said he wouldn’t make it through the night—but he did. In fact, he’s doing well now. We just wanted to thank you for coming. We know God sent you.” I sat there, speechless. I hadn’t done anything but show up, pray, and trust God to handle the rest. Yet here was the proof that what I thought was a small act of obedience had been part of a much bigger miracle. “And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.” — Galatians 6:9 (ESV) Part Three — The Second NightAbout a year later—almost to the day, almost to the hour—my phone rang again around 2:00 a.m. Another call from Herrin ICU.“Chaplain, there’s a family here asking for the man in the cowboy hat. Please come as quickly as you can.”I jumped out of bed, sore from a long day on a manhunt for a drug dealer. Anne handed me pain medication as I dressed and grabbed my white cowboy hat. Through tired eyes, I asked her again, “Why me?” Tears welled up as I muttered, “There’s got to be somebody better than me to take these calls.”Still, I went. The streets were empty as I drove through the night in my modified squad car, heart heavy. When I reached the hospital, the ICU doors slid open—and a woman came running toward me, arms wide, tears flowing.“Thank you,” she cried. “Thank you so much for coming.”I didn’t recognize her at first. Then I saw her husband standing beside her—the same man who wasn’t supposed to make it through the night a year ago. Part Four — The SonThe next words out of the woman’s mouth stopped me cold.“You prayed for my husband last year,” she said softly. “He wasn’t supposed to make it through the night—but he did. He’s fully recovered now, feeling better than he has in years.”Hearing these words, inside, my heart leapt for joy. I was praising God silently, careful not to disturb the ICU.But then came her next words. “You prayed for my husband… now we need you to pray for our son. He’s in a coma.”Just like that, my heart dropped. Tears welled up as I cryed inwardly, “Why me, Lord?”I steadied myself, my knees shaking as I walked toward that hospital room, praying silently.“God, I know You walk with me. I know You go before me and prepare the way. You wouldn’t send me if You hadn’t already made a way.”No one around me knew the battle raging inside—how fear wrestled with faith, how doubt bowed before obedience. But God knew. And in that quiet moment between my weakness and His strength, I felt Him whisper again, “This is why I send you, My son.”“The Lord is near to all who call on Him, to all who call on Him in truth.” — Psalm 145:18 (ESV) Part Five — The MiracleI entered the room. The young man—late twenties—lay motionless, tied to tubes and machines keeping him alive. &nbsp;“Here I am, Lord. I need You," I cried.Taking a deep breath, I began to pray with his mother, father, and young wife. As I prayed, the Holy Spirit nudged me to reach out and touch his knee.The moment I did, he suddenly came out of the coma—gasping for air, grabbing my arm like a man pulled from deep water.A surge of power rushed through me, from my body into his. I could barely stand. In an instant, that ICU turned from a place of mourning into a place of praise. Nurses rushed in, voices lifted, tears flowed. As for me, I slipped out quietly, too moved to speak. I don’t even remember hugging the mother or shaking the father’s hand. I just made my way to the car.Driving home as the sun rose behind me, tears streamed down my face. My body was spent, but my spirit was alive—crying and praising God all the way home.That morning, I stopped asking “Why me, Lord?” and started asking “What now, Lord?” Because when God calls, He already has a purpose—one we may not see until long after the prayer is prayed and the sun comes up. Part six - The LessonI don’t remember much after that morning—just sitting in the driveway as the sun climbed higher, realizing I’d just witnessed something holy. God didn’t need me that night. He allowed me to be there—to see, to feel, to know that He still moves in ways beyond our understanding.I used to ask, “Why me, Lord?” every time the phone rang in the dark hours. I don’t ask that anymore. Now, I simply say, “Thank You, Lord, for trusting me to go.”It’s not about eloquent prayers or polished sermons. It’s not about being the most qualified or the most confident. It’s about being available—especially when you’re tired, unsure, or feeling small.That’s where God shows His strength. That’s where miracles happen.Every call since then, every visit, every prayer, I carry that same truth in my heart: the power isn’t in the man wearing the cowboy hat. It’s in the God who answers when we call His name.“Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God.” — 2 Corinthians 3:5 (ESV) AfterwordWe all face moments when God’s call finds us tired, uncertain, or feeling unworthy. But His power doesn’t wait for perfection — it moves through obedience. Each time we say yes, even when we don’t understand, heaven draws a little nearer to earth.So if you ever find yourself whispering, “Why me, Lord?” remember — the answer isn’t about who you are. It’s about Who sent you. Walk in faith, rest in grace, and trust the One who walks beside you.In His love and grace,ray mileur"Helping believers walk closer with Jesus, one day at a time" raymileurministries.com

"Why Me, Lord?"

"When you leave everything in God's hands, eventually you will see God's hand in everything." ~ unknownWhen we stop clutching for control and place our trust fully in God, our eyes start to notice His fingerprints all over our lives — even in the places we once thought were empty.You could almost call it the “paradox of surrender”: the more we let go, the more clearly we see Him working. Proverbs 3:5–6 puts it plainly — “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.”When you trust God enough to release what you can’t control, He takes what was heavy in your hands and turns it into peace in your heart. Over time, you begin to see His hand guiding what once felt random, redeeming what once seemed ruined.Walk in faith, rest in grace, and trust the One who walks beside you.In His love and grace, ray mileur"Helping believers walk closer with Jesus, one day at a time" raymileurministries.com

God's Hands in Everything

&nbsp;"Hold fast. The storm won’t last, but the Anchor will." ~ ray mileurLife’s storms come uninvited—illness, loss, uncertainty—but they reveal what our souls are tied to. If our hope depends on circumstances, it drifts with the tide. But when it’s anchored in Christ, we stay steady even when the winds roar.The Word gives us comfort in Hebrews 6:19; “We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure.”An anchor doesn’t stop the storms from coming; it holds you through them. God doesn’t promise calm seas, but He does promise His presence. When doubts whisper and fear threatens to pull you under, remember: your anchor isn’t in your strength, your faithfulness, or your plans. It’s in Jesus—the same yesterday, today, and forever.The Anchor holds. Hold fast. The storm won’t last, but the Anchor will.Walk in faith, rest in grace, and trust the One who walks beside you.In His love and grace,ray mileur "Helping believers walk closer with Jesus, one day at a time" raymileurministries.com

Christian Reflection - The Anchor Holds

"If It’s Not Now, It’s Not Faith." ~ ray mileurFaith doesn’t wait for perfect conditions—it moves while the storm still rages. When God speaks, faith responds now, not later. Delayed obedience is often just disguised doubt. Hebrews 11:1 says, “Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” Notice that word—now.True faith doesn’t bargain for proof or comfort. It steps out before the waters part, trusting that they will. If you’re waiting for everything to line up before believing, you’re not walking by faith—you’re walking by sight.Faith isn’t tomorrow’s promise. It’s today’s choice to trust God completely, even when you can’t see how He’ll do it.Walk in faith, rest in grace, and trust the One who walks beside you.In His love and grace, ray mileur"Helping believers walk closer with Jesus, one day at a time" raymileurministries.com &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;

Christian Reflection - "If it's not Now, it's not Faith"

Daily R.E.A.P. Report for Hebrews 11:1 (ESV) The Substance of FaithREAD<p style="border-color: #e5e7eb; --tw-scale-x: 1; --tw-scale-y: 1; --tw-scroll-snap-strictness: proximity; --tw-ring-offset-width: 0px; --tw-ring-offset-color: #fff; --tw-ring-color: rgba(62,172,255,.5); --tw-ring-offset-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-ring-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-shadow-colored: 0 0 #0000; --tw-transform: translateX(0) translateY(0) rotate(0) skewX(0) skewY(0) scaleX(1) scaleY(1); --tw-border-opacity: 1; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; font-weight: 400; font-family: Poppins, sans-serif;" data-mce-style="border-color: #e5e7eb; --tw-scale-x: 1; --tw-scale-y: 1; --tw-scroll-snap-strictness: proximity; --tw-ring-offset-width: 0px; --tw-ring-offset-color: #fff; --tw-ring-color: rgba(62,172,255,.5); --tw-ring-offset-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-ring-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-shadow-colored: 0 0 #0000; --tw-transform: translateX(0) translateY(0) rotate(0) skewX(0) skewY(0) scaleX(1) scaleY(1); --tw-border-opacity: 1; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; font-weight: 400; font-family: Poppins, sans-serif;"><br style="border-color: #e5e7eb; --tw-scale-x: 1; --tw-scale-y: 1; --tw-scroll-snap-strictness: proximity; --tw-ring-offset-width: 0px; --tw-ring-offset-color: #fff; --tw-ring-color: rgba(62,172,255,.5); --tw-ring-offset-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-ring-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-shadow-colored: 0 0 #0000; --tw-transform: translateX(0) translateY(0) rotate(0) skewX(0) skewY(0) scaleX(1) scaleY(1); --tw-border-opacity: 1;" data-mce-style="border-color: #e5e7eb; --tw-scale-x: 1; --tw-scale-y: 1; --tw-scroll-snap-strictness: proximity; --tw-ring-offset-width: 0px; --tw-ring-offset-color: #fff; --tw-ring-color: rgba(62,172,255,.5); --tw-ring-offset-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-ring-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-shadow-colored: 0 0 #0000; --tw-transform: translateX(0) translateY(0) rotate(0) skewX(0) skewY(0) scaleX(1) scaleY(1); --tw-border-opacity: 1;">“Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” Hebrews 11:1 (ESV):<p style="border-color: #e5e7eb; --tw-scale-x: 1; --tw-scale-y: 1; --tw-scroll-snap-strictness: proximity; --tw-ring-offset-width: 0px; --tw-ring-offset-color: #fff; --tw-ring-color: rgba(62,172,255,.5); --tw-ring-offset-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-ring-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-shadow-colored: 0 0 #0000; --tw-transform: translateX(0) translateY(0) rotate(0) skewX(0) skewY(0) scaleX(1) scaleY(1); --tw-border-opacity: 1; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; font-weight: 400; font-family: Poppins, sans-serif;" data-mce-style="border-color: #e5e7eb; --tw-scale-x: 1; --tw-scale-y: 1; --tw-scroll-snap-strictness: proximity; --tw-ring-offset-width: 0px; --tw-ring-offset-color: #fff; --tw-ring-color: rgba(62,172,255,.5); --tw-ring-offset-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-ring-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-shadow: 0 0 #0000; --tw-shadow-colored: 0 0 #0000; --tw-transform: translateX(0) translateY(0) rotate(0) skewX(0) skewY(0) scaleX(1) scaleY(1); --tw-border-opacity: 1; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; font-weight: 400; font-family: Poppins, sans-serif;">Hebrews is a rich pastoral letter written to Jewish Christians facing pressure, doubt, and weariness. While the author&nbsp;Priest who secures our salvation. The audience needed encouragement to persevere and not drift from Christ.&nbsp;is unknown, the message is clear: Jesus is supreme—greater than angels, Moses, and the sacrificial system—and He is the perfect HighChapter 11, often called the “Hall of Faith,” recounts men and women who trusted God amid uncertainty and hardship. Hebrews 11:1 serves as a doorway into their stories, defining faith not as a vague feeling but as a confident grasp of God’s promises—even when they remain unseen. This matters for daily life because we often make decisions without seeing the outcome; God calls us to trust His character and step forward with courage.EXAMINE Faith is a firm inner confidence rooted in God’s promises and character. It doesn’t deny reality; it anchors us in a deeper reality—the certainty of God’s word—while we wait for what we hope for. Faith sees beyond the visible to the trustworthy God who never lies, never fails, and always keeps His promises.Connection to Jesus: Jesus is both the object and the perfect model of faith. He trusted the Father completely, endured the cross “for the joy set before Him” (Hebrews 12:2)—a joy not yet seen but absolutely assured. In Jesus, God’s promises find their “Yes,” and through Him we receive the Spirit who strengthens our faith. Following Jesus means learning to live with the same confident trust in the Father’s unseen yet certain purposes.Main Themes: - Trust and Certainty: Faith rests on God’s unchanging character, not shifting circumstances. - Hope Anchored in Promise: Christian hope is not wishful thinking; it’s confident expectation grounded in God’s word. - Perseverance: Faith empowers endurance—walking forward when the path is unclear because God is faithful.Key Word Study: - Faith (Greek: pistis) — trust, confidence, fidelity. More than mental agreement; it’s relational trust that leans its full weight on God. - Assurance (Greek: hypostasis) — substance, reality, firm foundation. Faith gives present substance to future hopes; it’s like the title deed guaranteeing what God has promised. - Conviction (Greek: elegchos) — proof, evidence, inner certainty. The Spirit produces a settled persuasion about realities we cannot yet see.APPLYReflective Questions: - Where am I facing uncertainty or delay, and how might God be inviting me to trust His promise rather than my timeline? - What specific promise from Scripture do I need to hold as my “assurance” today? - What one step of obedience can I take even though I cannot see the full outcome?Real-Life Application: - Anchor in a Promise: Choose one verse that speaks to your situation (e.g., Philippians 4:6–7 for anxiety, James 1:5 for decisions, Isaiah 41:10 for fear). Write it where you will see it often. When worry rises, declare it aloud. - Practice Seen-to-Unseen: Start a “Faith Log.” Each day, record one place you acted on God’s truth without seeing immediate results (e.g., forgiving, being generous, telling the truth, praying persistently). Watch how God meets you. - Take a Faith Step: Identify one concrete action aligned with God’s Word—send the apology, apply for the opportunity with integrity, set the boundary, start the habit of daily prayer. Faith grows when exercised.PRAYFather, I praise You for being faithful, unchanging, and true to every promise. You are my foundation and my hope.I confess that I often rely on what I can see and control. Forgive my fear, impatience, and doubt.Give me wisdom to cling to Your Word and courage to take the next step of obedience, even when the path is unclear. Strengthen my inner assurance and deepen my conviction through Your Spirit.Holy Spirit, empower me to live today by faith in Jesus—eyes up, heart steady, hands ready to do Your will. Let my life display the reality of Your promises. In Jesus’ name, Amen.CLOSING REFLECTION: Picture faith like a compass in morning fog. You may not see the whole landscape, but the needle is true. God’s promises point you forward, and each faithful step reveals more of the path. The unseen is not unreal; it is simply not yet revealed.CALL TO ACTION: Name one promise of God you will stand on today and one faith-filled step you will take in response. Walk forward knowing Jesus goes before you, stands beside you, and sustains you—turning unseen promises into lived reality.

The Substance of Faith

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Daily R.E.A.P. Report for 1 John 3:24 (ESV) Abiding Assurance by the SpiritREAD “Whoever keeps his commandments abides in God, and God in him. And by this we know that he abides in us, by the Spirit whom he has given us.” 1 John 3:24 (ESV)First John, written by the apostle John near the end of the first century, addresses believers facing confusion from false teachings. John’s goal is pastoral and loving: to ground the church in assurance—assurance rooted in right belief about Jesus, love for one another, and obedient living. Chapter 3 celebrates our identity as God’s children, calls us to live free from habitual sin, and urges love “in deed and in truth.” Verses 23–24 summarize God’s command: believe in Jesus and love one another. Verse 24 assures us that as we obey, we abide in God, and we know He abides in us by the Holy Spirit He has given. This matters for daily life because it links everyday obedience with real, felt assurance of God’s presence.EXAMINE Obedience and assurance go hand in hand. When we keep God’s commands—believing in Jesus and loving others—we “abide” (remain, dwell) in God, and He abides in us. Our confidence isn’t based on emotion alone but on the Holy Spirit’s inner witness. God is not distant; He lives in His people, guiding and empowering them to live out love and truth.Connection to Jesus: Jesus taught abiding in John 15: “Abide in me… If you love me, you will keep my commandments.” He perfectly obeyed the Father and promised the Holy Spirit as our Helper (John 14:16–17). Through Jesus’ death and resurrection, we’re brought into union with God, and through the Spirit, we experience His ongoing presence and power to obey.Main Themes: - Abiding: A continual, relational dwelling with God that shapes our thoughts, desires, and actions. - Obedience of Love: Keeping God’s commandments—especially believing in Jesus and loving others—is the natural fruit of abiding. - Assurance by the Spirit: The Holy Spirit provides inner confirmation that we truly belong to God.Key Word Study: - Abides (Greek: meno): to remain, dwell, stay. Not a fleeting visit but a sustained, living union. Abiding speaks to intimacy and stability—God makes His home in you as you rest your life in Him. - Spirit (Greek: pneuma): God’s personal presence, given to believers. The Spirit assures, guides, convicts, empowers, and produces love—the evidence of God’s indwelling.APPLYReflective Questions: - Where is God inviting me to express obedience through love today—especially toward someone who’s difficult for me to love? - How do I notice the Holy Spirit’s witness in my life (peace, conviction, Scripture brought to mind)? How can I respond more quickly to His prompting? - What small, consistent practice could help me “abide” more intentionally with God this week?Christ-Centered Practical Steps: - Practice a Love-First Response: Identify one person you tend to avoid or react to sharply. Before interacting, whisper, “Holy Spirit, lead me.” Choose a concrete act of love—listening fully, offering help, or speaking encouragement. - Build an Abiding Rhythm: Three times today (morning, midday, evening), pause for one minute: breathe slowly, say “I abide in You; You abide in me,” and read 1 John 3:23–24. Ask the Spirit for one step of obedience. - Test the Prompt: When you sense a nudge—reach out, apologize, give, refrain from gossip—ask, “Does this align with Scripture and love?” If yes, act promptly. Obedience strengthens assurance.PRAYDear Heavenly Father, I praise You for making Your home in me through Jesus and the gift of the Holy Spirit. You are near, faithful, and full of love. I confess that I don’t always keep Your commandments, and I sometimes resist Your promptings to love. Forgive me and realign my heart with Yours. Holy Spirit, increase my sensitivity to Your voice. Give me strength to obey quickly, to believe boldly in Jesus, and to love others in tangible ways. Empower me to abide every moment, that my life would reflect Your presence and bear the fruit of Your love. In Jesus’ name, amen.CLOSING REFLECTION: Imagine your heart as a well-lit home where God delights to dwell. As you open each door—belief, trust, obedience—the Spirit moves room to room, filling your life with warmth, peace, and love that overflow to others.CALL TO ACTION: Today, choose one Spirit-led act of love for a specific person and one simple abiding rhythm (a one-minute pause with 1 John 3:23–24). Walk forward knowing God abides in you—and by His Spirit, you will bear the fruit of His love.